Feb. 22nd, 2014 07:18 pm
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Title: Untitled
Rating: PG-15 up
Notes: Rather AU, may contain spoilers for Gundam SEED Episode 31/32

It can't be. Tolle can't be dead.

Just a few hours ago, we were laughing about his awful skill at the simulator. Then he volunteered to help Lieutenant La Flaga and Kira out with the attacking ZAFT mobile suits.

Suddenly, the communication with Tolle and Kira was cut off. Now they're both "missing in action"...a softer term for someone who's dead.

Tolle...where are you? You promised to return

In my room, Ssigh sat beside me with a worried expression on his face. "Miri...you shouldn't have..."

"I'm fine. It was an accident."

"I know, but---"

"Ssigh, it was an accident." I interrupted harshly.

After receiving the bad news, I rushed out of the Archangel's cockpit and ran without really seeing what was in front of me. I really don't remember what else happened.

Ssigh said that I somehow slammed my hand against a glass pane that shattered in a million pieces. Some of the shards got embedded in my hand and wrists. Everyone who saw my wound thought I was committing suicide for Tolle's death.

"You know I didn't mean to do it."

"I know." He let out a tired sigh. "I know."

Ssigh was our senior, and he took it upon himself to take care of us , especially Kira. He played the role of our elder brother, the one we all turn to whenever we were in trouble. He listened to our concerns and tried his best to help us in any way he could.

He always had the right answer. But this time, he was frustrated because he was helpless just like the rest of us.

I felt sorry for him. I knew he had his own problems as well, but here he hid his fatigue and fear by being the big brother again.

"Go on, Ssigh." I smiled sadly. "I can go to the infirmary to change my bandage."

He looked at me as if to say something else, but I stopped him with a determined look. He nodded in understanding, and the walk to the infirmary was silent.

"You're such a crybaby. You're not fit to be a soldier at all!"

I sat there with my eyes shut tightly and my tears streaming down my face, trying to ignore his cruel words.

He smirked. "Your Natural boyfriend died? Big deal."

I lost it.

There was a blade nearby. I quickly grabbed it and stabbed him with my good hand. "Tolle was a good person! He didn't deserve to die!"

He evaded, but just barely, and the blade hit the pillow.

"You bastard! Fuck you!" I tried to stab again. My wound reopened and was bleeding again, but I didn't care. This time, I got lucky and I managed to make a small cut on his bare arm. He fell on the floor, shocked and surprised. I knelt over him and stabbed him again. He moved away, and my blade hit the floor. My bandage fell off, and blood poured out from my wound that was bleeding heavily.

I couldn't see anymore; my tears flowed freely and blocked my vision. I fell beside him, biting my lip hard in frustration and tasting the salt of my blood and tears. "You creep...you bastard...Tolle didn't deserve to die..."

"How's your arm?"


"I...I'm sorry."

She was sitting on the floor with her knees pulled up to her chest. He was inside the cell, sitting on the floor as well across from her, his body leaning against the railings.

"How's...your hand?"


"I...I shouldn't have..."

The tray of food that she had brought to him remained untouched.

"Listen, I---"

Their eyes met.

He looked away. "You go first."

She shook her head. "No, you go first."

"Never mind." They both said at the same time, and were both at a loss for words.

She was thinking of Tolle. She remembered his boyish grin and laughing eyes, she remembered the gentle way he would hold her in his arms whenever she felt afraid...

She remembered how it was strange of her to prevent Fllay from shooting the ZAFT pilot dead.

Tolle wouldn't want me to kill anyone, even for his sake.

He was angry at himself for being so careless and so stupid to be caught by these...Naturals. His superiors were preparing a court martial, thinking that he had deserted the ZAFT forces.

He was sure that Yzak was laughing at his cowardice.

I was insane for surrendering myself to those stupid Naturals.

"Why did Tolle have to die?"

"If we all had hearts, there'd be no salvation."
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